“The purpose of all challenges and obstacles are to reveal the hidden miraculous powers of the soul” – Shifra quoting Authentic Kabbalah
On Oct. 24th, the last day of Durga Puja (symbolizing victory over evil), my mother was emitted into the hospital with a life threatening situation. After several diagnoses, they found a large blood clot in her lungs that almost took her life. Also, on the same day, I found out that I had an emergency situation with two of my teeth and was able to get immediate treatment; however, there is still $4,000 more work to be done for a root canal and crown. Now some of you might say there is nothing “victorious” about these series of events.
Why does G.O.D test those that It loves? And what is the definition of a test? Could it be a trail leading to triumph so that the turmoil of the faithful can be transformed into triumphant testimony gained from direct experience?
“The rose has but a summer reign, The daisy never dies” – James Montgomery, The Daisy
In truth, I am just so happy and thankful that I was there by my mother’s side when all of this happened and not in Mexico. It was as if the Bellony-King family clan all agreed to come together at this time in 2012 and play out this major drama of which my mother had the leading role. Everybody made their cameo appearances and played their part and it ultimately brought our family much closer together. There were many ups and downs and rising and falling action like in any drama, but by the time I left to go back to Mexico on Oct. 28th, things had stabilized and now she is out of the hospital and getting much stronger.
It’s amazing the strength that I have gained from this experience. I thought my person would have been more broken down, but I just had to put everything that I have been preaching into practice and it worked. From dealing with the doctors, my brothers and family members to dealing with the fear from within, there were so many signs and syncroncities that I know the hand of G.O.D (as always) was in all of this. I got the greatest sign at the hospital that everything was going to be alright when I saw a brochure right outside the hospital room that said “The Daisy Nomination Award” (for best nurse). My mother’s name is Daisy and she is also a retired registered nurse! This was confirmation to me that she was playing a role of which she’s received best actress!
My Triumphant Testimony
There are three main testimonies that I have gained from these direct experiences:
1) Take Care of Yourself First. When I was growing up, I used to hear my mom say “When your neighbor’s house is on fire, wet your own” and this came in very handy. I had a dentist appointment for 11am and after finding out that the health center we first went to didn’t take emergency patients, I told by brother to drop me off at the dentist and that I would meet him at the hospital. Although he wanted to zip off to the hospital, I told him it would make more sense dropping me off first so that I don’t miss my appointment. I’m happy that I didn’t buckle to the emotional pressure, especially after finding out from my dentist just how severe my situation was. And also since I wouldn’t have had another opportunity to go to the dentist before going back to Mexico. After I got my situation taken care of, I was in a much better situation to play a major role in all what transpired afterward. It’s just like they tell us on the plane to put our mask on first before assisting another, no matter who it is. Our ability to make non emotional decisions in emergency situations is key to becoming a master.
2) We Grow and Experience the Most From Those Closest to Us. What if Kaitlyn Keyt, owner of Vibesup.com, is right? What if the reason we have incarnated here on Earth was to lower our vibration so we could experience going from All-Knowing Beings to All-Feeling Beings. What if we are not here to learn ANY “lessons” or assist ANY “other” at all. What if we came here, with a long checklist of experiences that we thought would be great to experience with a karmic, predetermined cast of characters in the drama called life and we gave ourselves a “life-line”(as in 2012) to experience them by? And what if what was intended to be an evolution into creating even greater experiences can become a “dead-line” if we choose to do so by believing ANY of this is actually real? What if the only real mystery regarding 2012 is that we can choose to “remember” to return to the space of the heart instead of staying stuck in the mind of separation? Hearing this clip of a Mayan scientist on YouTube about what will really happen on Dec. 21st helped to put things into perspective.
3) It’s Only a Movie. Following this reasoning of us all coming here to have experiences, what if the greatest experience of them all is LOVE. To know and experience love, then to (what our person’s would describe) lose love or be betrayed by it, then to finally be redeemed by the saving graces of love. This cycle of birth, death and rebirth in love is not only sweet (and sour), but it’s what makes not only the world go around, but all individuated consciousnesses to know themselves as part of the Trinity, as All G.O.D, through direct experience.
Calling All Change Agents
From an astrological perspective, the planet Saturn going into the sign of Scorpio on Oct. 5th and setting up camp there for roughly the next three year’s can be described by one line in a James Brown song, “You gotta pay the cost to be boss.”
There is a “changing of the guards” that is taking place, where the old leadership paradigm is crumbling and being replaced by another. However, the mental and emotional state of the new leaders must be as solid as Fort Knox if our future generations are to ever stand a chance. 2012 has been about preparing our bodies, minds and spirits to be ready for a new frequency and what better symbol than Saturn in Scorpio to be the steward of the shift? Scorpio’s themes and dual nature says it all. Scorpio deals with issues of power, control, taboos, jealousy, sexuality, death and finally regeneration for self transformation-coming out of the ashes like a phoenix rising. Take all the themes of this sign and put it in the planet Saturn, the collective “bill collector”, then you have one interesting story! It’s time for us to surrender to the way we’ve been doing things so that we can be redeemed by learning the way of the heart. The current change agents and light beacons are the foundation of the new house that reality is being built on. If we are more susceptible to the voices in our heads rather than the love in our hearts; then what future does humanity have?
According to Elyse Killoran of the Choosing Prosperity Game, some common characteristics of change agents, the lightworkers, rebels and visionaries, are that we have/are: 1) Sensitive 2) Independent 3) Empathic 4) Counterintuitive Thinkers 5) Hypersensitive to Judgement 6) Driven Toward Self-Actualization 7) Perceptive and Able to See Things Other’s Miss 8) Inspired by a Sense of Destiny 9) Driven by an Internal Sense of Morality 10) A Strong Sense of Justice
Some qualities we need to release are: 1) Comparing ourselves to others 2) Not trusting ourselves and being insecure 3) Holding back and playing small 4) Not knowing where we end and other people begin (i.e, Getting lost in other peoples thoughts and emotions) 5) Going it alone 6) Willingness to tolerate the injustice in the world, which shouldn’t be 7)Fear of our power and being a leader 8) Fear of causing harm by being ourselves (we can only create good for all concerned when speaking our truth).
So now that we’ve all been “put on call,” what will your contribution to the shift be? How will you offer your greatest gifts to the world that is emerging? In whatever you be, say and do, just remember that love of self makes it possible to truly love another unconditionally. It’s the place where all need for control, jealousy and power ends and there’s nothing more powerful and uplifting for all humanity than for you to be happily in love- with yourself.
