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Daisy and DeBorah on Durga Puja

  “The purpose of all challenges and obstacles are to reveal the hidden miraculous powers of the soul” – Shifra quoting Authentic Kabbalah

On Oct. 24th, the last day of Durga Puja (symbolizing victory over evil), my mother was emitted into the hospital with a life threatening situation. After several diagnoses, they found a large blood clot in her lungs that almost took her life.  Also, on the same day, I found out that I had an emergency situation with two of my teeth and was able to get immediate treatment; however, there is still $4,000 more work to be done for a root canal and crown. Now some of you might say there is nothing “victorious” about these series of events.

Why does G.O.D test those that It loves? And what is the definition of a test? Could it be a trail leading to triumph so that the turmoil of the faithful can be transformed into triumphant testimony gained from direct experience?

“The rose has but a summer reign, The daisy never dies” – James Montgomery, The Daisy

Daisy and DeBorah

In truth, I am just so happy and thankful that I was there  by my mother’s side when all of this happened and not in Mexico. It was as if the Bellony-King family clan all agreed to come together at this time in 2012 and play out this major drama of which my mother had the leading role. Everybody made their cameo appearances and played their part and it ultimately brought our family much closer together. There were many ups and downs and rising and falling action like in any drama, but by the time I left to go back to Mexico on Oct. 28th, things had stabilized and now she is out of the hospital and getting much stronger.

It’s amazing the strength that I have gained from this experience. I thought my person would have been more broken down, but I just had to put everything that I have been preaching into practice and it worked. From dealing with the doctors, my brothers and family members to dealing with the fear from within, there were so many signs and syncroncities that I know the hand of G.O.D (as always) was in all of this. I got the greatest sign at the hospital that everything was going to be alright when I saw a brochure right outside the hospital room that said “The Daisy Nomination Award” (for best nurse). My mother’s name is Daisy and she is also a retired registered nurse! This was confirmation to me that she was playing a role of which she’s received best actress!

My Triumphant Testimony

There are three main testimonies that I have gained from these direct experiences:

1) Take Care of Yourself First. When I was growing up, I used to hear my mom say “When your neighbor’s house is on fire, wet your own” and this came in very handy. I had a dentist appointment for 11am and after finding out that the health center we first went to didn’t take emergency patients, I told by brother to drop me off at the dentist and that I would meet him at the hospital. Although he wanted to zip off to the hospital, I told him it would make more sense dropping me off first so that I don’t miss my appointment. I’m happy that I didn’t buckle to the emotional pressure, especially after finding out from my dentist just how severe my situation was. And also since I wouldn’t have had another opportunity to go to the dentist before going back to Mexico. After I got my situation taken care of, I was in a much better situation to play a major role in all what transpired afterward. It’s just like they tell us on the plane to put our mask on first before assisting another, no matter who it is. Our ability to make non emotional decisions in emergency situations is key to becoming a master.

2) We Grow and Experience the Most From Those Closest to Us. What if  Kaitlyn Keyt, owner of Vibesup.com, is right? What if the reason we have incarnated here on Earth was to lower our vibration so we could experience going from All-Knowing Beings to All-Feeling Beings. What if we are not here to learn ANY “lessons” or assist ANY “other” at all. What if we came here, with a long checklist of experiences that we thought would be great to experience with a karmic, predetermined cast of characters in the drama called life and we gave ourselves a “life-line”(as in 2012) to experience them by? And what if  what was intended to be an evolution into creating even greater experiences can become a “dead-line”  if we choose to do so by believing ANY of this is actually real? What if the only real mystery regarding 2012 is that we can choose to “remember” to return to the space of the heart instead of staying stuck in the mind of separation? Hearing this clip of a Mayan scientist on YouTube about what will really happen on Dec. 21st helped to put things into perspective.

3) It’s Only a Movie. Following this reasoning of us all coming here to have experiences, what if the greatest experience of them all is LOVE. To know and experience love, then to (what our person’s would describe) lose love or be betrayed by it, then to finally be redeemed by the saving graces of love. This cycle of birth, death and rebirth in love is not only sweet (and sour), but it’s what makes not only the world go around, but all individuated consciousnesses to know themselves as part of the Trinity, as All G.O.D, through direct experience.

Calling All Change Agents

From an astrological perspective, the planet Saturn going into the sign of Scorpio on Oct. 5th and setting up camp there for roughly the next three year’s can be described by one line in a James Brown song, “You gotta pay the cost to be boss.”

There is a “changing of the guards” that is taking place, where the old leadership paradigm is crumbling and being replaced by another. However, the mental and emotional state of the new leaders  must be as solid as Fort Knox if our future generations are to ever stand a chance. 2012 has been about preparing our bodies, minds and spirits to be ready for a new frequency and what better symbol than Saturn in Scorpio to be the steward of the shift? Scorpio’s themes and dual nature says it all. Scorpio deals with issues of power, control, taboos, jealousy, sexuality, death and finally regeneration for self transformation-coming out of the ashes like a phoenix rising. Take all the themes of this sign and put it in the planet Saturn, the collective “bill collector”, then you have one interesting story! It’s time for us to surrender to the way we’ve been doing things so that we can be redeemed by learning the way of the heart. The current change agents and light beacons are the foundation of the new house that reality is being built on.  If we are more susceptible to the voices in our heads rather than the love in our hearts; then what future does humanity have?

According to Elyse Killoran of the Choosing Prosperity Game, some common characteristics of change agents, the lightworkers, rebels and visionaries, are that we have/are: 1) Sensitive 2) Independent 3) Empathic 4) Counterintuitive Thinkers 5) Hypersensitive to Judgement 6) Driven Toward Self-Actualization 7) Perceptive and Able to See Things Other’s Miss 8) Inspired by a Sense of Destiny 9) Driven by an Internal Sense of Morality 10) A Strong Sense of Justice

Some qualities we need to release are: 1) Comparing ourselves to others 2) Not trusting ourselves and being insecure        3) Holding back and playing small 4) Not knowing where we end and other people begin (i.e, Getting lost in other peoples thoughts and emotions) 5) Going it alone 6) Willingness to tolerate the injustice in the world, which shouldn’t be 7)Fear of our power and being a leader 8) Fear of causing harm by being ourselves (we can only create good for all concerned when speaking our truth).

So now that we’ve all been “put on call,” what will your contribution to the shift be? How will you offer your greatest gifts to the world that is emerging? In whatever you be, say and do, just remember that love of self makes it possible to truly love another unconditionally. It’s the place where all need for control, jealousy and power ends and there’s nothing more powerful and uplifting for all humanity than for you to be happily in love- with yourself.

 

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What Does This Harvest Moon Bring?

Harvest Moon, Puerto Escondido, MX

On the blue moon of last month, I launched DeBellony’s Blog and on Sept. 3rd, this blog went public to serve as a fund raising platform to publish my first book: It’s All G.O.D: A Conscious Creator’s Guide to Healing the Effects of White Supremacy. Initially, I was going to launch a 31 Day campaign using Kickstarter; however, there were some setbacks with the  Amazon payments service they partner with. As a result, I decided to do my own campaign starting on the harvest moon of Sept. 29th.

Here Is Where I Need Your Help…

If you really like what you’ve read so far, then I’m asking you to do one or two things for one or two reasons.

One or Two Things
I’d like for you to make a donation and/ or send me a line to show your support that what I’m writing and sharing is something you think is needed at this time or whatever else is on your heart.

One or Two Reasons
I know that as a rule for every response a person gets on a blog,there are usually many more people who feel the same way but never take the time to respond. I know I have been guilty of this myself. So the first reason, I’d like to hear from you is to prove to me that I don’t have a creative project that “only a mother could love” (which by the way she is the only one to financially support me so far-thanks mom!;0). The second reason, is that if I know it means something to
more than just my mother, it gives me the motivation to keep moving on, financially as well as spiritually. And just remember, to the artistic soul, two words of support can go just as far as money.

In October, I’ll be sharing the actual book in the form of a private “blook.” For a minimum $5.oo donation, you’ll be able to offer constructive criticism and give feedback, as the chapters are coming “fresh off the press.”  Below is a partial list of the rewards depending on the level of your donation. For the full list you can go to the Contribute to Campaign page.

DONATION REWARD LEVELS:

$5.00– Access to Private “Blook” & Name/Organization Mentioned on Blog
$8.00– Above & 7 Steps to Conscious Co-Creation 7 Week Audio Series
$13.00– Above & Final Copy of E-Book
$21.00– Above & Name/ Organization Mentioned in Focal Point New Moon E-Newsletter
$34.00– Above & Destiny Card Report ($25 value)
$55.00– Above & Copy of Printed Book (Date TBA)
$89.00– Above & Name/Organization Mentioned in the Completed E-Book
$144.00– Above &  “It’s All God” T-shirt w/ Logo (Date TBA))

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A Message to Myself

This message is to myself. I’m writing to that part of me that’s played the murderer, the messiah, the masochist, the messenger. The me that’s played the terrorist, the rapist, the racist. The one that’s been the rioter, the revolutionary, the prophet and the “devil incarnate.”

I’m writing this message for me. There is no one else I need to refer to because it’s all me. If I can truly see and address MYSELF, then I can address all else- the “other myself” with all my heart. Not only does this give me the “credentials” to do so, it gives me the needed empathy, insight and compassion to see myself reflected back in all there is.

Yet, as it stands right now- This Ain’t Happening!

So, I’m the healer and spiritual messenger that wants to help. But I’ve got to help myself by seeing myself in everyone else. Just think about it DeBorah. If you look around you in this healer’s role and all you see is sick and wounded people, what does that say about you? Am I sick? Am I wounded? Am I a jealous backbiting so and so that’s so easy for me to identify in the other? Could it be I’ve come here with a passion to help and care because I have been there or (more accurately) helped to put another “there” in a past life somewhere? Could it be that if I see others judge and blame, that I’ve done (or am doing) the same? In this life or another, to one degree or other, have I been backbiting and fire igniting?

So today, there is only me in this world. What I see back is a reflection of me. If it’s beautiful. It’s me. If it’s terrible, it’s all me!

And yet, at the same time, how can it all be G.O.D. as well? Maybe I’m just an actress in G.O.D.’s many movies, so that all of it and none of it is really me. G.O.D just needs me to bring the movies to life. But then why would G.O.D create a production with all this pain and suffering? Given that I’ve been given free will, I guess it’s the same as in life. The “drama” that goes on during and behind the scene of any production isn’t that of the writer, director or producer, yet it’s what happens when every actor has been given a mind of their own to express their creative talents. For the writer, director and producer, the risks are higher using a “real” cast of characters, yet the rewards are far more fulfilling. The Creator’s job it to coordinate the show and keep everyone in harmony, along with his “staff of angels” overseeing every aspect of the production. They are the ones behind the scene cueing the actors with their lines when they forget, hoping they’ll have total recall and regain their confidence and stage presence once again.

Would I ever think that when I go to the movies it’s being created while I watch it? No! Beginning, middle and ending, it’s all been carefully written and is being played out on a projector of light, caption by caption for my viewing pleasure.

This is a great analogy. G.O.D the father is the mastermind behind the whole production and G.O.D the mother (mamma matrix)  is the script in every actor’s hand that glues the whole thing together. Written by G.O.D the father and set into motion by G.O.D the mother, the “s/hero” or G.O.D the son, plays the role of the redeemer and/or destroyer of that which came before.

The reason why G.O.D loves and accepts each and every one of us is because G.O.D knows, we are not the role we are playing and have merely forgotten our lines in the agreement we made to be actors in the many movies of creation.

The reason why my person doesn’t love everybody is because it doesn’t know this. My person (that aspect of my essence Self that identifies with form and fear) has an intellectual knowledge of this union, but hasn’t made it an habitual direct experience. Vipassana meditators know this state as equanimity. It’s the emotional stability that comes from a balanced mind in situations of gain or loss and the serenity of knowing ones true self at all times, first through achieving intellectual knowledge and then through direct experience.

Since when did I get so caught up in my temporary suffering to ever doubt, that as I look out, I’m only seeing me? In the child abuser and the cocaine user, it’s still all me. It’s all G.O.D. It’s all fine. And yet, how do I stay in this place of the heart, when looks can be so damned deceiving? How do I live it, instead of just talk about it?

What if I imagined that everyone I want to reach and teach and help and assist were really assisting me? What if they were the ones making the sacrifice for my remembrance that none of this is real? What if the only thing to get is that I am it? All of it! What if I had no book that I had to write and no audience that had to hear my message? What if going inside myself and touching G.O.D was enough, without ever having to leave my front yard?

This is why today and always, everything I’m doing and writing and sharing is a message to myself. If I have the slightest idea that it can ever be done for the good of others rather than the joy of expression to “another myself,” then I have no business doing nada! If I have the slightest idea that “someone” owes me anything or that I owe “anyone” anything for my gift of expression, then I had better come again.

There isn’t anybody here but the One, expressed in the Trinity (Generator, Operator, Destroyer) coming out of the None. The Three, that is the One, that is the None. From nothingness came all of creation and back to nothingness do we all return. Until the next go round!

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Aliens Are Our Ancestors

“As above, so below; as below, so above”

-The Kybalion

Most of us agree that G.O.D created us. And most of us agree we weren’t delivered by a stork, dropped forth from the rays of the sun, or picked from the garden in our yard. Most of us were born from the womb of our mother with the seed of our father. And our parents were born from our grandparents and our grandparents from our great grandparents, and so on.

If we follow this fractal reasoning even further, we’ll see that anything on the planet, within the planet, in our solar system, or in our galaxy, has a vested interest and connection to us for a reason. Some of these reasons are out of love, manifested from the heart and some are not. And just like the pebble that is thrown in the pond, our ancient ancestor’s “creations” continue to create ripples after their own kind, until they run “out of time” and enter back into the void to create again. Just because we don’t see them anymore, doesn’t mean they don’t exist. They are watching us and watching over us. And they are hindering us and working vicariously through us via the power of our minds. That psychic link we have to our children is no different to the psychic link our ancient ancestors have to us. Seen or unseen. Acknowledged or unacknowledged.

Essentially, we can only do any action and think any thought in life in one of two places- inside our heart space or outside our heart space. When we think and act from our hearts, we are able to see beyond the veil of illusion and create more good in our lives, in cycles and cycles. When we don’t, we fail prey to our unknown, subconscious desires and outer manipulation from that which came before us. So then, the next logical question to ask is, “Is the world we are living in today representative of the heartland?” If your answer is NO, then the next logical question to ask is, “What would it take to get back to that space of the heart?”

“God is simple. Everything else is complex. Do not seek absolute values in the relative world of nature”

-Paramahansa Yogananda (From Autobiography of a Yogi)

The way I put it is, the Devil is in the details, but G.O.D is in the paradox. It’s true, G.O.D works in mysterious ways and no play puts it better than William Shakespeare’s Romeo and Juliet. This play serves as symbolism of what mankind’s deepest, unresolved wounds look like when they are not brought into balance in our hearts and minds. In this dualistic reality, it seems we all have a “mortal enemy” i.e, cats and dogs, men and women, black and white, good and evil, aliens and predators, werewolves and vampires, and the list continues. Yet, what if G.O.D’s clever wisdom uses US on the world stage to work out that which came before us (seven generations in the past and future AND beyond)? What if we are the ancestors of the past, in a body in the present, with the rare opportunity to determine the future?

What if our choices (based on which ancient alien ancestors we listen to) during this “end of time” era have the opportunity to end the separation? What if we took this job seriously and put an end to the quarrelling of past ages and civilizations that we’ve been programmed and dumbed down to forget? And what if we were being assisted now more than ever by certain planetary alignments and influences, just as a youth is assisted during puberty with certain hormones, experiences and hopefully constructive conversations about “the birds and the bees?”

It’s hard for some of us to imagine that this may be the ultimate goal of humankind. Yet just as the young adult goes through many changes during puberty, they almost always land safe on the other side (for better or worse) a different and forever changed human being. We don’t ever doubt that a child will one day become an adult and see the world differently, no longer dependent on their parents to decide for them.

Given that same G.O.D. power in quality, but not quantity, why would we doubt humankind’s next planetary evolution to become an intergalactic being response-able for the joy and pain we create in our lives and our sphere of influence?

We are headed in this same direction and what determines our heaven or hell has little to do with the outside world and everything to do with what’s going on within. Let us choose wisely our thoughts, our allies and our alliances, for as we already know “what goes around, comes back around.”

Against my mental judgment, and in alignment with my heart, I’m allowing you to be the proverbial “fly on the wall” to a private conversation I had with my best friend  well over a year ago. I thought it would be a good idea to record my conversations for the development of the book. I didn’t realize how much would channel through me when given the opportunity to talk with a person that believes in me and accepts me as I am-no matter what comes out of my mouth! In this 40 minute revealing rant, my person speaks in high tones and funny voices, sings off-key, tells her personal business, is ‘politically incorrect’ and speaking full-out ebonics. But what the heck, in this age of Aquarius, I guess I’ll err on the side of transparency, for I truly have nothing to lose, if one person has something to gain. You have to click the link below and download it, so if you don’t choose to that’s okay (that just saves me some embarrassment -lol!).

DeBorah’s 40 Minute Revealing Rant

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A Crime of Compassion?

“History is a gallery of pictures in which there are few originals and many copies.”
— Alexis de Tocqueville

It’s a known fact that when white folks seek to become enlightened (or to conquer-take your pick) , they observe the fallen & forgetful eumelanated “other” in order to better understand (or position) themselves. That’s what anthropology originally was all about. They go and study in Africa, India and wherever else eumelanated people lie their heads. According to  Rick Smith: European Confessions of a Moorish Legacy: Part 2, it’s what Socrates and Aristotle did.  It’s also what Ram Dass and Sigmund Freud did. It’s what Paul McCarthy did, and the list goes on and on.

What is a little known fact is that the descendants of the Elohim do (or should do rather) the exact opposite. They must humble themselves and observe that aspect of Self rejected or projected onto what the Kogi tribe in South America called “the young brother” and the Dogon tribe in Africa called Yurugu-the incomplete being. However I, after being around my so-called opposite with the heart, mind and soul of a G.O.D still intact, call them the “inner me” vs the “enemy.” To me, what the world family has observed as “negative” in white folks represent the projected manifestation of that which came before them. That aspect of the original G.O.D. s and the karma they created once they fell out of the space of the heart.

This whole scenario can be wrapped up perfectly in the analogy of parenthood. When parents fight, the children suffer and when the children rebel, the parent disown them and outcast them out of their hearts. The children, in an angry rage, rip up everything that was ever representative of their parents. But that’s alright. Just like Cypher said in the Matrix, “everybody falls the first time.” Yet, now is time for us all to awaken from the dream and to end this game of separation, duality, good and bad, male and female, black and white.

My message is mainly for what Malcolm X  would call the “field negro (naga)” vs the “house negro (naga).”  It’s for those descendants of the Songhai People who, volunteering to experience the transatlantic  slave trade, possess the bloodline of the G.O.D’s and haven’t forgotten, yet definitely have fallen. Fallen from where you ask? That great space of the heart. We are here to learn compassion. To see how ALL life is relative, has meaning and that- It’s All G.O.D.

If what Rick Smith says is true, that eumelanated people were born with the gene for compassion, then doesn’t it make sense that we should show compassion? Compassion for ourselves, our mother, our lover, the other? Yet, not the kind of compassion that says, “look, I’m a doormat, come walk all over me.” But rather, the compassion of a person fully awakened into the knowledge of who they are.

This planet (and the universe in general) is fractal or holographic in nature. As a result, we merely repeat the cycles of that which came before us, like a pebble thrown in a river, creating a rippling effect. Ezekiel 18:2 in the bible says, The fathers have eaten sour grapes, and the children’s teeth are set on edge. It’s true, the faults and strengths of our ancestors are passed down in our DNA. Yet what we know about DNA today, is that we can make a conscious choice to change it, by the thoughts we keep in our minds and more importantly, the love we display from our hearts.

If the first law of The Kybalion is true, that the universe is mental, then the question that isn’t being asked by the descendants of the elder race is WHY really was the pale skin rejected from the heartland? Listening to Rick Smith’s lecture brings some clarity to a big part of the puzzle. However, for the eumelanated person, now is not a time to stay filled with animosity. Yet, anger is an important part of the growth process toward the last stage of acceptance, at our own pace and at our own time. Once we clear the mental and emotional lies that have been propagated against us, our ultimate goal is the serenity of knowing It’s All G.O.D., Generating Operating and Destroying in cycles and cycles, so It can know Itself  through Its Creation.

And while it’s true, there is no one to blame, it’s so easy to just say “get over your story.” But what if you have a kindergartener’s perspective on what reality really is?  When we are angry, the last thing in the world we want is for anyone pointing this out to us; yet, we find it so easy to identify and make known the anger in the life of another. I’d like to borrow from the ageless wisdom of Almine when she says, “Assertiveness is not anger, but not to be assertive is to become angry”

We must have the courage to assert the truth that we know without attachment or worry of what others might say. The world is suffering from a lack of assertiveness and therefore there is a lot of outright and underlined seething anger going on around and about the place masked in denial and victimization. It’s time for this to end. Some might say, “I’d rather die before I forgive so and so or accept having played a role in what is transpiring today”  Well, my response is, to be careful for what you ask for in this era of  “resistance is futile” oneness consciousness. All the aspects of G.O.D. desire to become whole again, collapsing time and space, reaching zero point, pressing the reset button, so that It can create anew in a new space, and that space is the heart. Drunvalo Melchizedek: On the Ascension Process  explains it beautifully towards the end of a 25 minute You Tube video.

Yet, it’s a cancerous sin for me to judge this process even. It’s a cancerous sin for me to fight against it. Hasn’t Magneto in the X-men taught me anything? I strengthen that which I resist. I must see myself clearly in the other and know- It’s All G.O.D. I must awaken from the spell of sleep that has been cast on the family of man. I must realize that the G.O.D s and ancestors that I’ve been praying to, benefit from my worship of them and live vicariously through me and the dualistic opposition I create in the world. I must stop this parasitic feeding and realize, I didn’t come here to venerate and worship our fearful and vengeful ancestors, the fallen GODs of the past. I came here to set them free by bringing an end to this cycle of the human experiment based on separation and the dualistic thinking of good and evil.

Will you join me on this journey of becoming our own persons by choosing to live in the heaven of our hearts? And if our parents (ancestors) don’t comply with our choices of the heart, then it’s up to US to put them down quickly and efficiently and with the utmost respect. Exodus 20:12  says, “Honor thy father and thy mother: that thy days may be long upon the land which the LORD thy God giveth thee.”  Yet, how or what is the best way to honor them? By giving them a ‘proper burial’ and knowing that We and our parents AND our ancestors AND the G.O.D.(s) we worship are all one in the same.

 

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